darvocet sucks

i went to see my regular doctor yesterday because texas oncology sucks. they don't care about me because i don't have cancer. they told me to take glucosamine chondroitin for the pain. that's mostly for joint pain and arthritis. yeah, not gonna help me. anyway, my doctor did an x-ray and gave me darvocet. darvocet isn't great. it provides about as much pain relief has aspirin. but i suppose it's better than an arthritis supplement. i haven't heard back about the x-ray yet. i'm not really sure what it could possibly reveal anyway, other than a hole in my iliac crest. i have to go back to see my doctor in a week or 2 and then i'll probably go see the orthopedist. grrr. i have a job interview on monday. yikes!

it never ends!

uuugggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. my oncologist's office told me that i have to go see an orthopedic doctor because they have NO idea why i'm still in pain. seriously? another fucking doctor? i am so annoyed, i can't even tell you. i have to go see another specialist because of problems from a procedure that a specialist made me have? i hated brackenridge hospital as soon as i walked in there and now i'm convinced that they botched the procedure. i was calling that place a chop shop as soon i was wheeled out of there. little did i know how right i was. i'm so bummed about all of this :(

tv appearance and bone holes

first things first, dan and i went to schulz beer garten for the last few minutes of the obama primary watching party and ended up being in a crowd shot on news 8 austin. awesome! secondly, i believe i mentioned this last week but whatevs. i spoke with a nurse at my oncologist's office to find out if it is normal for my bone hole (the site of the bone marrow biopsy...cute nickname, huh?) to still hurt pretty badly. she nurse said it wasn't common but not completely abnormal. i spoke with a different nurse on the phone today and she said that i should not be experiencing this much pain this long after the biopsy. so she said she would talk to the doctor and then call me back. this was around 3:00 and she didn't get back to me. also, my white blood cell count is lower than last time i had labs done but still pretty elevated. annnnnd i am SO DAMN EXCITED that obama clinched the nomination!!! i haven't seen the entire speech from earlier tonight but i heard it was really moving. i can't wait to watch it!

bone maaaarrow

pretty much everyone knows that i had a bone marrow biopsy done back in february. i would venture to say that it was the least pleasant experience of my entire life. (eww side note: i just did a google image search for "bone marrow biopsy" and now i literally feel like i am going to barf. also, i had run across these before but had blocked it out of my mind...there are videos of bone marrow biopsies on youtube. WTF??) for anyone who is wondering, the "site" where the needle went in still isn't all the way healed. weird, right? i guess it's weird, i don't know. i don't know what it is supposed to look like. i do know that it started hurting again last week and hasn't stopped. lame. i have an appointment with my oncologist in a few weeks so i guess if it's still hurting by then i'll ask her what's up. if it starts hurting worse than it does now i'm going to have to call and whine about it. what if it never stops hurting?? i'm scared i got a botched job or something since i went to that chop-shop brackenridge. most disgusting hospital EVER. completely unrelated! on last.fm this week i had a 3-way tie for most listened to artist: joseph arthur and the lonely astronauts, the brendan hines, and mgmt. i don't know if i've ever had a tie before, let alone a 3-way tie.