playlists

when i take my ambien at night instead of falling asleep, i stay up later making playlists in spotify. weird, right? i don't just make playlists, i also craft and cut things out of magazines for future craft inspiration. totally weird. anyway, if you have spotify you can check out my profile and see these silly mixes i've been making. 

in related news, i need a new sleep aid. i mean, ambien is awesome and i have a blast staying up and creating things but i really need to sleep as well. boo.

this just in

sleeping on your back...

SUCKS! 

omg the last 2 nights have been brutal. nooooo sleep. so the last 2 days have been super awesome too. brain dead doesn't even describe it. right now i can barely type this. i've had more typos than i would if i were drunk. and yet when i turn this off, do my nighttime routine, and crawl into bed i will not be able to sleep :( 

no "weird shit"

i do not have sleep apnea. in fact, the doctor told me that there was no "weird shit" going on during my sleep study. at first i thought maybe i misheard him but then he said shit, like, 2 more times and threw in another cuss word as well. luckily i was extremely comforted by his language rather than offended, like some people might be. now, don't get me wrong, i am glad that i don't have sleep apnea...i don't want to wear a freaking c-pap machine every night but (of course there's a but) i'm disappointed that there is still no explanation for what's going on. i'm starting to think i'm just going to have to get used to it.

in other news, my bff is coming back soon! i wish i didn't have to work all next week because i won't have that much time to spend with her. boo work. but i'm excited to see her, especially so soon since her last visit. it's almost like she lives here again. someday...!

so here's a random story that really cracks me up. a couple of weeks ago my sister brought her family over and i was watching david bowie and the spiders from mars on palladia. nels seemed enthralled with david bowie so i said something about that to my sister and then nels spent the next hour babbling about dagid bogie. then a week later i was watching something else on palladia and nels said, "that dagid bogie?" haha he kills me, he really does.

the results are in...

but i won't get them until tomorrow. i was told in order to get the results of my sleep apnea study i would have to see an ENT. i called on monday to make an appointment and the earliest they could see me was december 30. okay, that's 3 weeks after i had the damn study done. then yesterday they left me a message saying i needed to call to reschedule. i called this morning and was informed that the doctor won't be in on december 30 and that the earliest he could see me was january 7. i told the woman on the phone that that was completely unacceptable and that i wanted my results over the phone because if they can't make me a priority then i'm not going to make it a priority to go in for an office visit. she told me that they couldn't do that and put me on hold. then she came back and said, "oh actually he has an opening tomorrow morning." i don't understand why i had to get angry with her for her to actually do her damn job and really look to see when the next available appointment would be.

so anyway, i'll get my results tomorrow morning. stay tuned...

totally sleepless

one word to sum up my experience at total sleep: ugh. it was one of the worst night's sleep i've ever had. i was in bed for about 8 hours and i maybe slept 3-4 hours. i was so uncomfortable. i sleep best on my side (either side, it doesn't matter) but i had to remain on my back the entire night. i woke up constantly and never really felt like i had fallen asleep at all. it sucked. friday sucked. i had the darkest, nastiest circles under my eyes all day. i felt like a zombie. i was supposed to meet up with some new friends (friends of a friend who just moved to austin) on friday night but i had to reschedule with them because i was just too damn tired. i felt awful for canceling but i just couldn't go out that night.

i have to make an appointment with an ear/nose/throat specialist just to find out the results of my sleep study. that irritates the living shit out of me. i do not want to pay for an office visit with a specialist just to find out my results! how about if i have sleep apnea, i'll make a damn appointment? anyway, here are some pictures i took with my phone of the room i was trapped in all night.

the hard bed with a plastic sheet that made all sorts of noise every time i moved. oh and the regular sheets were stiff as hell and the one blanket on the bed was super thin.

my view from the bed. note the super cool night vision surveillance camera in the top right corner. creepy.

i was all stoked because i thought they had dish. they did not. if i had known there would be a dvd player i seriously would have brought a movie. i was forced to watch barbara walters...blech.

not a normal nightstand...

my sleep movie

when i came home from casey's last night i was completely exhausted. i uploaded some pics and caught up on the 'net then put in a movie (cruel intentions). however, due to my over active brain, i was unable to fall asleep. i hadn't taken an ambien because i felt so tired i didn't think i would need one. after cruel intentions was over i put in the old standby, lost in translation. by no means does this mean that i find it to be a boring movie because i love lost in translation. LOVE. but something about it almost always puts me to sleep (when i need to be put to sleep). i think it's a combination of the small amount of dialogue and the (mostly) ambient music (i mean, "fuck the pain away" by peaches isn't exactly ambient...good thing i'm usually asleep by the time that scene is on). is there something that you turn to, other than pills, to help you sleep?

i've got nothing

that sign says "WARNING STAY BACK 300 FT NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR BROKEN WINDSHIELDS". every time i see those i think, "well if i can read this sign i'm obviously not back 300 feet."

moving on...

when you're unemployed "weekends" don't mean that much. the only difference is that all of your friends have a couple of days off as well. i look forward to the weekends but not as much as most people. however, i am REALLY looking forward to this weekend! and thankfully, it pretty much begins tomorrow. kelly is flying in around 5:00 and i'm sure happy hour activities will ensue shortly after. sam is also coming in tomorrow, but she's driving rather than flying. excited doesn't even begin to describe it. kelly AND sam in the same weekend? be still my heart.

and saturday is robin's birthday! yippeee! amber and lolo are being incredibly gracious and letting us party it up at their place for a few hours. then, hopefully, some of us will head to beauty bar (i swear i go to other bars but we've been going there a lot lately because there's been a lot of stuff happening there) to see car stereo (wars). i already wanted to go to that and robin mentioned wanting to go somewhere to dance so i was like, "DUH BEAUTY BAR CAR STEREO (WARS) LET'S DO IT!" just like that. i always have a good time at csw!

now, i'm going to try to scrounge up a sleeping pill so i can catch some zzzz's. my insomnia has gotten really bad lately. i was up until after 4:00am yesterday for no reason. i simply could not fall asleep. i think i'm out of ambien but i'm sure i can find something. if worse comes to worse i'll just take some benadryl.

p to the s-this is tomorrow! (well i guess technically tonight since it's after midnight but whaaaatever.)